Here I am, the father of a beautiful baby girl. Here I am, the husband of a wonderful, beautiful wife. In this moment, where I pass my daughter to my wife, I am complete. God has smiled on me and has granted me the most wonderful family. Our parents are around the hospital bed, tears flow freely from every eye, and my wife cradles my daughter to feed. I have never been more happy, or more blessed.
Oh, how I wish this dream would never end, but if you are reading this, then you know this dream ends in apparent darkness. That happy moment would give way to disbelief, horror, and unspeakable grief in the loss of our dear
How did this play out? Writings to come will tell the tale from my perspective – the loving father whose burgeoning family was torn apart too soon. How long does the darkness last? It’s hard to say – too many shadows still remain. Is there hope? A light at the end of a tunnel? Something to be hoped for even though it is not seen? ABSOLUTELY!
God does not dwell in the dark – He is the Light. The shadows are only present because of obstacles trying to keep us from being in that Light.
Do you know anything about a broken bone that has been healed? The newly healed bone is actually stronger than it was before the tragedy. I believe that Jesus, the Savior and Lord of my life, is working in the midst of our loss to create a man and woman, stronger than before. He will make us a family, tighter than before. It is in Jesus that we find the love to draw us closer together than ever. Make no mistake – it won’t feel good at first. It absolutely does not! BUT, He who began a good work in us IS INFINITELY FAITHFUL to complete that work, and I know He will.
Jesus, hold onto my daughter until I get there. She was always Yours.
Like the Scriptures say, one day we will see face to face….
A good first post. A good start.
ReplyDeleteYou continue to amaze me with your strength and faith. Thank you for your willingness to show His power through you.
ReplyDeleteJonathan, you and Whitnee are still very much in my thoughts and prayers. I can't wait to meet precious Lydia Grace. I imagine her dancing with Jesus. :) I'm going to link your blog on mine so I can follow you. Love you guys!
ReplyDeleteJonathon, your beautiful writing has brought me to tears. I am so thankful for your words and for the strength you have found to tell your story. I truly cannot imagine the pain that you and Whitnee are going through, but as you said, it will make you stronger, in your faith and in your marriage. Please continue to write, I believe that it can be such a healing process. You and Whitnee hold a very special place in our hearts and please know if you ever need us, we are always here.
ReplyDeleteI shed a tear as I completed reading this post. I am thankful to have a friend like you. Reading your words reminded me that each moment is tender and precarious in this life and that without the Almighty who has claimed us, we would be left empty and broken. You are not removed from my prayer list. Please continue to bless us with your commentary. It is a much needed reality check!
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